Unlike Sir Kevin Gates, I DO Get Tired
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. – Hebrews 12:1
You know what’s so tough about running this do better race in our 20’s?
We are so focused on trying to compete in competitions we were never supposed to run.
Throughout my life, and even more so in Vegas, I have desperately struggled with trying to keep up with everyone else’s race.
The truth is I’m slow ya’ll. Yeah, I said it.
I would love to hurdle over my problems and win the season I’m in but the gag is that God has specifically created me to go MY pace. Not the pace of others.
But it’s frustrating, trust that I get it. Everybody is passing you, running circles around you, laughing and pointing.
The shame of not being who I wanted to be slowed me down even more.
At one point I wasn’t even running, I was walk skipping.
I should have practiced to prepare for the race God assigned me, but I wasted the time sitting and looking at everyone else. Comparing their stride to mine.
So when God forced me to start running this year, I got tired.
About to full blown pass OUT. You know like when your chest is burning so deep that you know for sure you’re having a heart attack? It’s terrible. Like HALP.
Are you out of shape?
Do you grow weary and frustrated because God assigned you to the 800m instead of the 100m dash?
Not only do we slow ourselves down by comparison but also by holding on to distractions that create dead weight. It’s like running with wet clothes on.
Yes, you may be moving but chile you ain’t going very far. And you itchy.
I have found that when we are on the right course and even in the right race, we are trotting so slowly because of the distractions in our lives.
For the past couple weeks, I’ve been determined to stop playing and start practicing for the victories I know that God will reveal.
Tha Warm Up
My single most powerful warm up has been diving into the Bible and asking God to show me who I am. We allow so many distractions to keep us bound by insecurity and shame because we don’t know who we are.
This life is crazy and not knowing who you are leaves you to compromise. To skip the workout all together.
I don’t mean how we feel about ourselves in the good times. I mean sticking to a truth that doesn’t change when we reach those deep, dark ugly places of us. I found that even through my raggedy mess I am still saved (Eph. 2:8), restored (2 Cor. 5:18-19), chosen (1 Peter 5:9), forgiven (Psalm 31:1-1), a light (Matthews 5:14), perfect (Hebrews 10:14), POPPIN (Alaina 1:1).
Write out the ugly emotions you feel while running this race. The only reason I got to those words was because I saw myself as the complete opposite: average, rejected, insignificant, unlovable, hidden, lazy.
I use these verses when the world tries to convince me of the latter.
No matter how fast or slow you go, distractions will keep you losing.
What is your morning routine like? Is your mouth full of complaints? Can you turn up every weekend but can’t turn down to put more into goals for the year?
Many people are passing us, not because they are better, but because they are focused.
This was supposed to be a short post and went so much longer than intended dangit.
But the revelation I wanted to share is that you must desperately fight to do you. Run the race you we designed to kill not the one you think people want. Not the one you think YOU want. But the one that you were created for.
I’m so thankful for the joy. So thankful for the peace I am finding by being me in a world that tells you to be everyone else.
Keep your heart three stacks. Your season’s finish line is closer than you think.
Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. 3 Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart. – Hebrews 12:1-3